Of course, you do. You're too smart not to. 😉
It's easy to dismiss her actions in Faith, Hope, & Trick as cowardice, but when you consider what happened to her, I can't imagine anyone not behaving the way that she did. She had no proper parental figures in her formative years and grew up forced to look out for herself on the mean streets of South Boston, not the nicest environment as I understand it. Then she meets her Watcher. He tells her she's special, that all her suffering has a purpose, that the tough skin she's been forced to build, the damage she's taken, has a purpose. And he cares about her. He listens to her. He protects her. And then she sees him murdered. Murdered because she wasn't good enough. At least that's how it felt to her. And, at the same time, she, who had been told, who had learned through experience, that she was tough, capable, and unstoppable, found out there was something out there she couldn't even begin to handle, a threat that seemed insurmountable.
She's dealing with post-traumatic stress disorder. Unresolved grief. Survivor's guilt. Feeling responsible for the death of the only person who ever cared about her. A lifetime of neglect, of being told she isn't worth loving or protecting. She's a really complex character who develops a deep self-loathing after accidentally killing a human (the deputy mayor), and her redemption is one of the most satisfying arcs in the franchise, in my opinion. I think Five by Five and Sanctuary is one of my favorite arcs in all of Angel as well.
